Loneliness. Deep loneliness I’ve never felt before… It look’s like I’m in a top of my dream, every one want to work with me. But why doesn’t it feels like victory? Maybe because my best friend now call me to offer me a job… Ehh… Life is hard… Now I don’t know where to go, what to wish… It seems nothing can make me happy. They say time helps. Well I really count on that.Hello, depression.
Hello))) It’s actually was my first trip to Peter. And you know why I decided to go there? A week ago one guy wrote me a message, asking where he should go to have fun with his friends in
It would be the end… But we both was so bored. And he was going to visit Peter for his friend’s
birthday. He asked me to fly there to have a coffee and I said yes). You can imagine how shocked he was). And so my trip begins)
I’ve booked two hotel’s for two nights because I wanted to have as much action as I could! Both of them was in a center and both was really great! All do Peter don’t have the same type of serves that 
weather).
On a first night we meet for a coffee in one of the most fashionable restaurants in Peter. We talked about everything and I really felt like knew him for a long time… All do he is a pervert bustard, it’s absolutely my type of a guy)) The serves and the food was perfect, and after that we moved to the clubs.
The clubs in Peter is nothing compare to 
styles. Meet people I’ve never meet before and drink drink drink!!!
On a next day it was so hard to get up to move to the other hotel! But I’m glad I’ve booked it, because in the other way it would be impossible to pick me up from bad at 11:30! And so with a help of my friend from Peter I went to see the day city.
The weather was perfect! And in a sunshine everything looked so beautiful! We walked thru all the center before I understood I need a place to sit and eat)
What came after… Well… I can only say, it was really fun!
Looking forward for a new week ends)
Well here I am... Sitting home along. Again. Thanks to my house kipper apartment is finally clean! I think she is always really shocked of how a girl can live like that!!! But well I work like a guy, drink like a guy… Why can’t I live like a guy=)Ok, back to my loneliness.
I don’t look like lonely person. I have enough money, pretty good job, so someone is always around me. But I’m a typical miserable human being! Why? Because somewhere inside me I
don’t know how to be happy. I only feel alive when some drama comes to my house. But I’ve never wanted to be like that! And I really, really want to be happy! I try to change myself every day… But probably problem is not just in me. All this club’s and showbiz crowd, they don’t know how to be friends and I don’t want bulshit people around me. So I always say truth and always stay along.
A lot of people want to know me, but nobody wants to stay. A lot of guys want to have me but no one want to keep me. This is a sad part of my life. But it’s not all sad! I have my great moments! I’ll tell about them in my next note! See ya=)
Here goes my first blog in here. I've never been to smart and to shore in my self to believe that something I would write people will actually like to read. But than I thought – Hey, I’m not so special so what, I still have some
ideas I would like to share with people.I’m not going to write about fashion and TV here. Lust thing I want to do after eight years of work in show biz is talk about it in my free time! So fashion and glum lovers, sorry this blog wont be to interesting for you for you. And one more… I’m from
Well let’s skip explaining and go straight to bloging!
Here goes my first blog in here. I've never been smart and confident enough to believe that my writing would be actually interesting for other people. But somehow I just want to share my world with you and I'm trying to make it less boring then typical "my life" talking.
And one more thing… I’m from
