Friends.

Hello friends!

I was already going to bad when this thought came to me. I was just thinking about my last weeks and my future.

Two weeks ago I couldn’t imagine that everything will be like it is now. Like this interesting moment – I had conflicts at work and I thought my friend would help me make a better relation with my coworker and now my coworker helps me to forget my friend…

Things that was supposed to be hard just disappeared, and friendship that I thought would last forever, went away in one day.

I miss you my friends…
Why do you always have to go?

Today...

Well here I am... Sitting home along. Again. Thanks to my house kipper apartment is finally clean! I think she is always really shocked of how a girl can live like that!!! But well I work like a guy, drink like a guy… Why can’t I live like a guy=)

Ok, back to my loneliness.

I don’t look like lonely person. I have enough money, pretty good job, so someone is always around me. But I’m a typical miserable human being! Why? Because somewhere inside me I don’t know how to be happy. I only feel alive when some drama comes to my house. But I’ve never wanted to be like that! And I really, really want to be happy! I try to change myself every day… But probably problem is not just in me. All this club’s and showbiz crowd, they don’t know how to be friends and I don’t want bulshit people around me. So I always say truth and always stay along.

A lot of people want to know me, but nobody wants to stay. A lot of guys want to have me but no one want to keep me. This is a sad part of my life. But it’s not all sad! I have my great moments! I’ll tell about them in my next note! See ya=)