Living the time of my life!

So I went for a one week trip to Helsinki and Stockholm, hoping to meet my friends and do a little shopping... Somehow it appear to be the best time of my life! It's really hard to tell about all the great people I've met, so please my friends don't be mad at me if I didn't mention you in this blog. You know I love you!

So here we go...

Before going to Stockholm (my favorit city in the world!)I've decided to stay for three days with my aunt in Helsinki. Witch was sopposed to be most boring time of the trip! But thanks to ASW community and random bar party I've met one great guy who managed to prove to me that Helsinki can be really fun! He showed me really nice places and told me a lot of things I didn't know! So thanks to him I really didn't wanted to leave Helsinki! But the time went fast and I needed to continue my trip, So I went on a cruise ship to Stockholm. I love to travel by boat, but this time I just went to the bar and fall asleep back in my room in an hour or two=)

In Stockholm my friend from France was waiting for me. The thing is it's not that easy for european people to come to Moscow, so a lot of my friends from all over the world was meeting me in Sweden.

So back to the Morning... We met with my friend and went for a walk around Stockholm. God, how I love this city. I was jumping around like a kid, being so happy! Stockholm is the place where I feel like home!

When I finnaly got tired I went for a little shopping and in half an hour it was a time for meeting my other friend that came from Austria for a little vacation in Sweden.

At night we all went to the bars and the night clubs... And as usual a lot of crazy stuff happened to me so when I woke up in the morning, my back, shoulder, hand and the nose was in pain! Truly damaging night!

Next day was a best day of all the trip. All do I had the worst handover ever and I was just sitting all day in my new friend apartment, watching movie and eating pizza, it was really, really fun! Plus I used to be a huge fan of that guy when I was 12. So it was really nice to meet someone you respect so much and see that he has a great personality!

At the boat on the way back I really felt sad... So I went to my favorite pub to get some whisky. My mood was perfectly shared with incredibly talented singer who was singing popular rock, ballad and her oun songs. As she said, her mom and dad died one after another and when she was singing, people in the bar could really feel her pain!

All my lust day in Helsinki I spend with my friend (the one I met in the bar) in the cafe and then at his house. We were just hanging out, doing nothing but still it was really fun!

Not the best news was waiting for me back in Moscow... But it was a normal price for the great time I had during my travel! Thank you, my friends for making this trip the best time of my life. Hope to see you all in Moscow soon!

Here is my little video blog from the way back on a boat =)

Natural beauty

Why do people love it so much? Why do everyone look for it? And why do we feel ashamed to let others know that we have changed the way we look for the better? Isn't who we are is what we've made of our selfes?

Some of us was born more beautiful then the others, so why is it so bad to wish to be better. Why is it bad to wish to be loved. Why do people respect something that was giving them by nature and not something they did by themselves?

I don't like to spend hour in front of the mirror in the morning, I don't like to spend 2-3 hr in a gym, I don't like to buy expensive masks and creams, but I do that. I do that so people would like me. Because no matter what we say, we all want to be loved one way or another. And from what I saw in this world, it doesn't really matter who you are and how much you earn if you look bad.

So why do everyone love natural beauty so much?

Men...

They hurt us, they love us, they leave us, they say they’re sorry… There is no point of saying sorry after all. What’s done is done. Guys! If you don’t want to be with us, then be brave enough to let us go! Don’t follow us with you’re sorry words, they only hurts, don’t try to destroy our personal life! Remember, that you are the one’s who left! If you leave us, leave. Because we can’t say no, to the one’s we love.

But if, but if…

Friends.

Hello friends!

I was already going to bad when this thought came to me. I was just thinking about my last weeks and my future.

Two weeks ago I couldn’t imagine that everything will be like it is now. Like this interesting moment – I had conflicts at work and I thought my friend would help me make a better relation with my coworker and now my coworker helps me to forget my friend…

Things that was supposed to be hard just disappeared, and friendship that I thought would last forever, went away in one day.

I miss you my friends…
Why do you always have to go?

Today...

Well here I am... Sitting home along. Again. Thanks to my house kipper apartment is finally clean! I think she is always really shocked of how a girl can live like that!!! But well I work like a guy, drink like a guy… Why can’t I live like a guy=)

Ok, back to my loneliness.

I don’t look like lonely person. I have enough money, pretty good job, so someone is always around me. But I’m a typical miserable human being! Why? Because somewhere inside me I don’t know how to be happy. I only feel alive when some drama comes to my house. But I’ve never wanted to be like that! And I really, really want to be happy! I try to change myself every day… But probably problem is not just in me. All this club’s and showbiz crowd, they don’t know how to be friends and I don’t want bulshit people around me. So I always say truth and always stay along.

A lot of people want to know me, but nobody wants to stay. A lot of guys want to have me but no one want to keep me. This is a sad part of my life. But it’s not all sad! I have my great moments! I’ll tell about them in my next note! See ya=)