Normal?

Are you trying to be special?
Every day I'm starting my morning by trying to be little bit more like normal people. To be happy from the things that makes others happy, to care about stuff that's important to others, to act like people expect me to act. Why? So I won't end up alone in my room, writing this blog ;). And every time I start to get closer, every time I believe I can do that, something inside of me brakes and I just turn away from the world and hide inside my self, knowing that I just can't meet anyone like me...
It's nice to be different, but it's just really lonely.