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Love this guy!

Just can't stop myself from putting this video here! This is one of the best human being I've seen on TV=)

P.S. I didn't make this video!

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Will I ever be happy again? Will I torn into a typical business bitch and will I forget how it feels to be loved... Will I ever need a friends again? How will life treat me? Will I believe in happy endings? Would I want to live in reality or prefer to stay in my happy world, and what is better?
Sometimes I think it's good not to remember how cool it was, when I used to be a kid...

A fucking crazy Moscow!

Yap! The stories about Russian mafia is so truth! Yesterday night I got myself in a blockbuster style of trouble!
So I as usual I went to the clubs and it was all fun and crazy. I got drunk and decided to go home in the morning.
I'm going outside, catching a car and starting my ride home. And suddenly, out of nowhere two Bentley cars start to follow me, then they, surround car and make the driver stop it!!! Two big guys coming to me and ask me to leave the car and have a talk with them. Ofcors I'm staying in the car and telling driver to push a fucking gas pedal! But al he do is just keep saying - "I don't want any trouble! I don't want any trouble!"
So the guys open my dore and making me leave my car and go to there's...
Lucky for me it appears that the main maffia guy just really wanted to take me for a breakfast, witch he did. And while we were talking he also told me that he would love to invest money in my business and if I need any protection I should just call him or mention his name... (I don't really think I want take money from him=) Then they catch me a cab and send me home...
So here is another fucked up storry of my life!
Welcome to Moscow=)

A little bit of Pride =)

Here is me! The awesome=)))
Just joking!!!
Here is my favorite picks and the part of my my latest interview.
Some of you might saw it... So don't judge to hard=)

Living the time of my life!

So I went for a one week trip to Helsinki and Stockholm, hoping to meet my friends and do a little shopping... Somehow it appear to be the best time of my life! It's really hard to tell about all the great people I've met, so please my friends don't be mad at me if I didn't mention you in this blog. You know I love you!

So here we go...

Before going to Stockholm (my favorit city in the world!)I've decided to stay for three days with my aunt in Helsinki. Witch was sopposed to be most boring time of the trip! But thanks to ASW community and random bar party I've met one great guy who managed to prove to me that Helsinki can be really fun! He showed me really nice places and told me a lot of things I didn't know! So thanks to him I really didn't wanted to leave Helsinki! But the time went fast and I needed to continue my trip, So I went on a cruise ship to Stockholm. I love to travel by boat, but this time I just went to the bar and fall asleep back in my room in an hour or two=)

In Stockholm my friend from France was waiting for me. The thing is it's not that easy for european people to come to Moscow, so a lot of my friends from all over the world was meeting me in Sweden.

So back to the Morning... We met with my friend and went for a walk around Stockholm. God, how I love this city. I was jumping around like a kid, being so happy! Stockholm is the place where I feel like home!

When I finnaly got tired I went for a little shopping and in half an hour it was a time for meeting my other friend that came from Austria for a little vacation in Sweden.

At night we all went to the bars and the night clubs... And as usual a lot of crazy stuff happened to me so when I woke up in the morning, my back, shoulder, hand and the nose was in pain! Truly damaging night!

Next day was a best day of all the trip. All do I had the worst handover ever and I was just sitting all day in my new friend apartment, watching movie and eating pizza, it was really, really fun! Plus I used to be a huge fan of that guy when I was 12. So it was really nice to meet someone you respect so much and see that he has a great personality!

At the boat on the way back I really felt sad... So I went to my favorite pub to get some whisky. My mood was perfectly shared with incredibly talented singer who was singing popular rock, ballad and her oun songs. As she said, her mom and dad died one after another and when she was singing, people in the bar could really feel her pain!

All my lust day in Helsinki I spend with my friend (the one I met in the bar) in the cafe and then at his house. We were just hanging out, doing nothing but still it was really fun!

Not the best news was waiting for me back in Moscow... But it was a normal price for the great time I had during my travel! Thank you, my friends for making this trip the best time of my life. Hope to see you all in Moscow soon!

Here is my little video blog from the way back on a boat =)

Natural beauty

Why do people love it so much? Why do everyone look for it? And why do we feel ashamed to let others know that we have changed the way we look for the better? Isn't who we are is what we've made of our selfes?

Some of us was born more beautiful then the others, so why is it so bad to wish to be better. Why is it bad to wish to be loved. Why do people respect something that was giving them by nature and not something they did by themselves?

I don't like to spend hour in front of the mirror in the morning, I don't like to spend 2-3 hr in a gym, I don't like to buy expensive masks and creams, but I do that. I do that so people would like me. Because no matter what we say, we all want to be loved one way or another. And from what I saw in this world, it doesn't really matter who you are and how much you earn if you look bad.

So why do everyone love natural beauty so much?

Crazy night!

My aunt was coming from Finland to see me and show me her new husband;). So I decided not to work and spend all day resting and all evening having fun with my aunt. This is how one of a top 10 crazy nights happened to me!

Of course after couple glasses of wine I decided that I want to have fun. As my aunt decided to go to bed, I went to my favorite place Garaje. In which I have a club card now! Weee!

Some shots, some cocktails and I saw myself dancing at the Ray club, where bye the way Morandi was singing «live». Nothing interesting happened there, so I desided to go to Opera club, but it was raining so much I had to try to catch a car standing under the guard umbrella, and belive my it's not the easiest way to do that! After 10 minutes of hopeless trying I started to go desperate and then some guy offered me to come to club Famous with him in wich I've never been before but did wanted to go, so of corse I said yes=)

The show I've seen there was really... No words! I'll just post a video so you would see=))). Two girls with really good body's;) Got naked in the lounge under ours and almost made out with each other and couple of guys near them... I can't imagine how they feel in the morning... They shore did Great promotion to the club. You think I was the only one with the camera?=))

In the morning I went to Garaje again to have some breakfast and of cors meet my great friends there... I was so drunk I almost got in to a cat fight in a lady's room, but for good went to have some more drinks with the girls I was fighting=) The party end up in a Mcdonald's with I think is great ending for this pretty fucked up night!

Hello entertaining!

Working and having fun!

It's been a long time.

A lot of things happened, good and bad. My heart was broken couple of times=), I've got awesome jobs and incredible new friends! For one mounts I had to work in a 3 jobs at the same time. So I basicly used to sleep for 3 hours a day!!! I could fall asleep in 2min! But it was really fun. At 3am I had to wake up to go to my first job - NTV(НТВ) news, where I was working as a makeup artist. At 10am I was already going to a second job on Zvezda(Звезда) channel to bring some closes for the TV programs. Then at 4pm I was going on my third job which was in Taganka teatre(Театр на таганке) where I was working as a main makeup artist and had to stay there till 11pm.

It was a great time, but I don't think I would try to do that again soon!!! I got paid very well was able to go to a long vacation!!! And buy myself a new MacBook that was delivered to me by my good friend from US! Thank's a lot for that bye the way)

So as you see I had fun! Life is never boring for me! I was a first in a line for a crazy destiny!!!

See you soon)

New day!

Hello every one)))

New feelings has come! I don’t feel depressed any more! I started to have fun at work again! And from being a girl also ;) Now I’m ready to live on! I’m not thinking of what I could have, I’m thinking of what I will! Does it mean I’m a bitch again? The answer is - YES! In the best meaning of this word)))

Depression.

Loneliness. Deep loneliness I’ve never felt before… It look’s like I’m in a top of my dream, every one want to work with me. But why doesn’t it feels like victory? Maybe because my best friend now call me to offer me a job… Ehh… Life is hard… Now I don’t know where to go, what to wish… It seems nothing can make me happy. They say time helps. Well I really count on that.

Hello, depression.

My crazy nightlife racing!

It started no Wednesday and finished on Sunday morning at eight o’clock. I went to all possible places you can get drunk in Moscow! Met so many friends and new people… I haven’t met that many at the really long time! With working every day I still don’t know how I survived!

It started on the greatest PUB ever! It appear to be close to my flat and it’s a place where you can sit in a really good atmosphere with a great public and watch sport games. But the greatest thing about it is that they make there own beer there. I met my old friends and we watched a football game)))

On a next day I went to a club named Opera. I can’t say I really like this place but I’ve met my close friend there and it made this night really great. Plus it was the lust night I saw him because he was living the country… I will miss the friendship we had.

The craziness started on a next day when I decided to meet with my other friend to have a drink in a cafe. Then we went to the club name Ray and that was a fatal mistake!!! We've got so drunk there, we end up breakfasting with a shoots of B52 in the after party club)

On a lust day I went on a fashion show at evening and promise to my self I will go back home after! Well.. I couldn’t go before I would see the “burn” girls dancing naked with a commercial body art on them. That is so typically Russian! I loved it.

The party ended in a morning pub with me, my friend and some guys wee just met comparing our fists… I couldn’t stand up from the bed all the next day! It was totally crazy! Hope next time I wont go out for four days non stop!

The main thing I understood, you can’t kill your pain and loneliness by drinking in a fancy clubs or chasing some guys you don’t even care about just to be with someone. You need to learn to face your problems and learn to live with them!

So people! Don’t drink!=)

My trip to Peter

Hello)))

It’s actually was my first trip to Peter. And you know why I decided to go there? A week ago one guy wrote me a message, asking where he should go to have fun with his friends in Moscow. I told him the names of the clubs and actually went there too. But we were to drunk to meet, and on a next day he left Moscow…

It would be the end… But we both was so bored. And he was going to visit Peter for his friend’s birthday. He asked me to fly there to have a coffee and I said yes). You can imagine how shocked he was). And so my trip begins)

I’ve booked two hotel’s for two nights because I wanted to have as much action as I could! Both of them was in a center and both was really great! All do Peter don’t have the same type of serves that Moscow does and you can actually feel the depression of the town (because of the weather). But people in hotels was really nice (so as weather).

On a first night we meet for a coffee in one of the most fashionable restaurants in Peter. We talked about everything and I really felt like knew him for a long time… All do he is a pervert bustard, it’s absolutely my type of a guy)) The serves and the food was perfect, and after that we moved to the clubs.

The clubs in Peter is nothing compare to Moscow… In Moscow, if you can’t pass face control, you won’t pass in no matter how much money you have. And in Peter you just need to pay 500 rubles for a girl and 1000 for a guy).My friends told me that it’s because this money is big in Peter. But any way it was really nice to change places and see other life styles. Meet people I’ve never meet before and drink drink drink!!!

On a next day it was so hard to get up to move to the other hotel! But I’m glad I’ve booked it, because in the other way it would be impossible to pick me up from bad at 11:30! And so with a help of my friend from Peter I went to see the day city.

The weather was perfect! And in a sunshine everything looked so beautiful! We walked thru all the center before I understood I need a place to sit and eat)

What came after… Well… I can only say, it was really fun!

Looking forward for a new week ends)

Men...

They hurt us, they love us, they leave us, they say they’re sorry… There is no point of saying sorry after all. What’s done is done. Guys! If you don’t want to be with us, then be brave enough to let us go! Don’t follow us with you’re sorry words, they only hurts, don’t try to destroy our personal life! Remember, that you are the one’s who left! If you leave us, leave. Because we can’t say no, to the one’s we love.

But if, but if…

Dilemma...

Hello from nowhere =)

Uh…. It’s always like this… When I’m at the store I’m saying to myself -"You don’t want to smoke, don’t buy cigarettes". And than when I’m sitting at home with out one I’m ready to kill for it!=) And specially now, when I have a great dilemma! I don’t want to stay at home in misery but if I’ll go out I’ll see so many people I don’t want to see and don’t want to face along… So I have a choice between facing my thought’s along of facing people I’m not ready to see… Any way I’m facing my fears.

What should I do? Who knows?

Friends.

Hello friends!

I was already going to bad when this thought came to me. I was just thinking about my last weeks and my future.

Two weeks ago I couldn’t imagine that everything will be like it is now. Like this interesting moment – I had conflicts at work and I thought my friend would help me make a better relation with my coworker and now my coworker helps me to forget my friend…

Things that was supposed to be hard just disappeared, and friendship that I thought would last forever, went away in one day.

I miss you my friends…
Why do you always have to go?

Thing's to love!!!

Here we go again! This time I wanted to talk about things I love more than everything in my life.
Like Laugh! I love to Laugh. And I love people who can make me laugh and who can laugh with me! One thing that always the same with all the people that’s close to me is that they know how to Laugh!
And Evenings! God I love evenings! They are so rare! Most of the time we see just the day’s and the night’s (Mostly night’s in my case=). But isn’t it great to just walk along in the evening with a nice music in you’re iPod…The smells of nature getting stronger and the hit of the city going down! Thought’s of happiness comes to my had in this kind of moments!
Ou and of course the cigarettes! I’m trying to quit! And this is really hard, because cigarettes made my life so romantic! If you don’t smoke, don’t read this!=) Maybe its movies but it’s amazing how a cigarette can torn a shitty moment’s in to something really romantic and beautiful! I have a lot of shitty moments, and the lust thing I want to do is to live in the reality when this moments comes! Ah… Life is hard!

I think that’s it for now=)))

Any best things in you’re life you want to share?